Really most times that I sit down to blog it's a post that has been running through my head all day. Something that came up that I started thinking about and just had to share. The last couple weeks though I haven't had any idea what to write about. I do keep a list of things to write about, but none of them seemed "inspiring" to me. I knew that if I sat down and started typing there would be something to say, but since I wasn't sure what I would have to say I did nothing.
My "real" life is like that too. I have a whole list of things I would like to get done, and I know if I just get started then something will get done. But sometimes I am afraid that I won't have time to finish, so I would rather not start, and sometimes I am not sure how to tackle the task, so I do nothing instead. And a lot of the time I am just not excited about doing it. It doesn't make a lot of sense to me, because I know that making the effort feels good even if I get nothing accomplished (most of the time anyway).
Today there are no children in my house. This rarely happens. I did have grand plans today. I had a few things to catch up on and then I was going to scrapbook. However, it's 5:30 now and I have yet to get my scrapbook stuff out. I needed to make another bath of homemade laundry detergent today and I did that. And now I am blogging which I also wanted to stop neglecting. But my scrapbooks didn't get brought out yet because I went out and dipped in the kid's wading pool and read a magazine. Not productive at all, and I am glad we have a privacy fence as my neighbors would surely have gotten a laugh out of me sitting in the kids pool. But, I was hot and I can never cool myself off in their pool when the kids are home, because I get splashed. Not to mention who could read with kids running around outside? Whenever I try that I almost always end up reading the same sentence over and over until I want to cry (and not only does that freak the kids out, but I also don't want them to think that I am the kind of mother who would rather read or do "my stuff" than watch them play and hang out with them).
So, this what my summer has been like. I have a list of goals and things I would like to do, but so far I don't feel like I've gotten anywhere and school starts SOON! I am actually not really sure when I'm going to start school, but I do suddenly feel like time is running out on me. And not knowing where to begin has really left me with not doing much of anything (now since I rarely get to do hardly anything that is it's own blessing I suppose).
So, my plan for the next month is to give myself specific tasks to do each day to get my goals done. For example I have 2 boxes full of magazines that I need to go through. I am using them for a craft for the preschoolers at church and I am cutting letters out of them, and pictures of children. Doesn't seem like a big deal except that those magazines have been sitting in my basement since April. I decided I am going to get rid of them this summer. I decided that I would do at least 2 magazines a day. Now, I still have 2 boxes sitting in my basement, but the piles in them are getting smaller. So, if I do the same thing with scrapbooks and my other goals then I just might get somewhere. So, for the next month I am going to make myself blog every day even if it's really short and dumb (wish I could think of a more creative word than that). Please feel free to skip the dumb posts. I am hoping by doing this not only will I get in a good habit of writing every day, but also of organizing my thoughts, becoming more concise, and getting some good ideas. (When I am blogging I always seem to think of things I would like to write about).
So, here's to coming up with a place to begin, because a little something done every day can end up being a big thing. Hoping big things (or at least accomplished goals) come out of me tackling my little projects one little step at a time.