So I had grand plans for the New Year. I had broken up my goals for the year into bite-size pieces, which I was sure would make them easier to accomplish. I was going to blog today about the bite size goals I had made for myself so that I could accomplish some of the things I had resolved to do this year......and then I had one of those days.
I woke up certain that I could make headway on some of my goals and get a few things done today. I didn't even think I had overloaded myself and I was sure that I would have a few minutes of free time at the end of the day to do with as I wished. However, not only did I not manage to accomplish those few things, but I also messed several things up today making more work for myself.
I was so frustrated. I have been reading some great books since Christmas break. One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp, The Resolution for Women by Priscilla Shirer and Mastering the Seven Decisions that Determine Personal Success by Andy Andrews and I have been so motivated that this year I can make some of the changes that need to be made. So, it was discouraging to me that I couldn't even take a few small steps towards my goal.
A couple hours later it makes me chuckle to just think about it. As if I expected that the resolve I have for the New Year of 2012 means that my days are full of accomplishments and free of the hiccups and wrinkles that come with life. As if having six children and a husband never cause me more work than I expected. It does seem silly now, but a couple hours ago it was almost enough for me to just chuck it and give up for the day. One day lost is certainly not the end of the world.
However, I also know that giving up on even small goals one day can make it easier to give up on them day after day. So, I decided it would be better to take a deep breath, and then determine which of the goals I am still able to accomplish. Certainly not the three that I had intended for the day, but I can at least try to get one done.
So, there it is. I discovered today that 2012 will be much like 2011 in terms of the things that I am able to control. I will still have days that don't run smoothly, or anywhere close for that matter, but I decided today to do my best to redeem the hours that I had left. So, it's the same kind of New Year as before...sort of.